weeee!!! how can life be without horrible exams?!
fun, play and freeed!!!
im not ready for the results though cos i know i might have to repeat another year. argh.. heck it! i don see how i can pass 6 mods! morever i came out like 1 1/2 later for my HRM. hahaha.. then i went shopping alone in Popular fair. after which, i went down Central to meet Jiapei and sebby for Ramen dinner. yummy! its to the 'end to the school life' celebration. yeayea..not for me la. i celebrate for them. we walked from Central to Marina shopping centre, achade abit and then home at 11plus.
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on Duan wu jie nite, i went dinner in imperial treasure with ah gong and my parents in one degree 15. the food is so so only. i only like t
he fish. yummy.
there are more food though.. so after dinner, i went home and teevee and then started reading memorising abit of HRM notes from 11pm. aiyah i know i wont pass so i just study one chapter and sleep.hehe
saturday was sleeping and jap dinner with dearest after his work.
there are actully more fishes pictures but i doubt anyone will ber interested other then dearest. and im lazy to upload them too
ok thats all for the sunday.
tmr is the last paper and im already in my holiday mood.. nah.. i had the toughest fight in may. and its so hilarious that im actually fighting with a non living thing call exams and not some worthy dovey thing. i had to go to the doc because my heart ran as fast as a bullet train. i got myself into the world of my own, and i cry every single day in may without fail. tmd! and i need to eat medicine because of all this nonsence.. its really tmd because i feel like the lousiest girl in uol. i panick the slightest bit. i puked air, not eating, sleep like not sleeping and dread every single day and i hate night, cos its like i realise i havent study enough for the day at all.
but im so happy, so happy because even for the shittest month i have, i found love in my home and in my dearest. i hugged my mummy every time i cry and she comfort me with the 'just try your best ' line. yea, its really about the support i get from them. like my dad always say, 'aiyah its not the first time your being paranoid over exams, u get this everytime u have exam, stomachache headache, leg pain, whatever pain i can feel in my body, i think its very painful. i told dearest im really lousy because its jus an exam and to me its like im having some illness for the rest of my life. oh well, i still don get it why i feel this way because its the feeling like everyone walking around u are non-existence. and daddy say, 'fail then take next year loh, don spoilt your body because of this' and tadah! i felt awake and comfort. they never once pressured me in anything i do. 'i love them!!!
and dearest.. i owed him the most. and i guess i have to paid it up to him for my life now. he had been the only mountain i can lean on, giving me the best i could get.. when nobody is there for me, he appeared. he spend every single night revising law with me, read my notes, explain them into simple english, make sure i remember the impt points, asked his dad for abit of pointers. and do my MA question. imagine he had never read my notes before and he can even do decision making for me.. and read my audit notes. spot question for me and all came out right. im so glad i had him. for now, im very worried about his health because his ah gong is in the hospital, and his current work sux and he still had to calm me down. im so scared he is going to fall down soon..
its so nice when u found out who your friends are, to comfort u, tell u everything is alright. like sebby always say 'ni ke yi de la' 4 weeks after today and you'r in 'perth' or like, not everyone are good at what they do, but we still have to finish what we started so just bear with it. and the' dont think too much of failing'..its when u see who your friends really are when ur at the end of the road.
i hope my paranoid are going away soon, because i can feel them leaving me. im glad lah, they sux in my life... they should leave and never come back.
just had audit this morning and i havent nap yet, and gugu is treating us dinner at one degree 15 for dinner.. i wonder if i should go without napping.., or if i should stay home becos i got last paper tmr.. but today is 'duan wu jie' hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..
im going to nap now..
10 things that accompany me thru revision..
counting down to 10days to my first paper.. it would be a long week ahead and its like i cant wait to finish all this ordeals or im just so happy about getting out to work and slogged for the **** co.. anyway im more enthu about what im going to do right after exams..
dearest has been there for me every single day- monday tuesday, wednesday, thurs, fri, sat and sunday.YES! every single day, accompany me revising for my work and me as usual, distressing by disturbing him. hehe. dearest has been a great help, reading my notes and explaining every single shit i dont understand, he even jot down impt notes for me. but im feeling real bad about him doing nothing sitting beside me other than to read my borrrriiiing notes. and some times, i get a little distracted during the weekends and i just wanna go out and play, like its the only day i get to see him all day.
so the 10 wonders that kept me high during self studying...
puffy with very short tail
little puffy looking at the lens
his fluffy feathers
after bathing..
having her lunch after bathing.
1) little puffy olive- dad caught this birdie flying in my house and she is such a baby, i brought it to dearest house so her mum can look after it. she is like the cutest bird i ever seen though, other then love birds. she has short tails, and still carry baby feathers, so we think she is just a girl, not ready to be a mummy yet.
dearest and i spend quite some time reading about this little species. its breed is an olive-backed sunbird, she constanly gets hungry because she only drink nectar and sometimes, spiders for nutrient, But we don't have flower, so sugar water is the only resource. she is quite fussy with her sugar water, dearest went to the bird shop to get her some baby bird nutrient where we mixed it with the sugar water, but she refuse to drink more after tasting it. waolao.. hard to please. so we were wondering if we should invest in the expensive vetafarm nectar.
Olive-backed Sunbird is very bold and often builds nests close to and even in human habitation. she has what is considered an unpleasant song and are tricky to keep alive (and she chirps every 2 seconds.
)(rough metallic chirps cheep-cheep-wheet; also a high-pitched rising chee). she is really noisy other then when she curls up and sleep like a log. oh and because she constantly puffs up, dearest mummy called her puffy. 'puffy quiet!', ' puffy food!'.. oh well..
2) lush 99.5 have been keeping me company for day and some nights. its really soothing to listen to songs that makes you unwind and think about stuff. but for me, listening it motivates me..
3) dearest got me all the healthy tablets bottles and some, i have never seen before.. gingko, chicken essence, chewable vitamins, collagens, calcium.. im going to be so healthy la and he makes sure im not around crowded places in town..cos im not in the period to fall sick and im constantly making sure im well enough everyday, sleeping the usual 10hours a day, unless i suddenly feel gan chiong over managerial econs in the middle of the night. anw, i wont be in town for the next 30days..
4) this june trip has been running around my head for the last 1 month and its mentally killing me.. i wanna be there right now!!!! well, dearest say if im gonna pass every single subject, he will pay the full expense for me in this trip. but i doubt it would happen. lets just be caution about some things that hasnt happen yet. and im not gonna pin too much hope on it. and the last thing to even happen is to cancel the trip because of swine flu.. doubly fingers cross.
5) my favourite band with all their 'spacey' songs in my mp3 to keep me going. i just love them to bits. its such a waste when they were here in sg, i was actually in their country..grrr..
6) bejeweled blitz is too addictive. im trying to keep a distance away from computer cos, if its online, its bejeweled,. and bejeweled can last for more than an hour when each game is only 1
minute...
7) how can i not live without food!!! i got utmost hungry every single hour!!! its like the brain eating all the brain juice and left with non for my other parts of my body.. and i have to eat somemore...
(i know this are not food pictures)
8) my G10. i snap ugly pictures when i got alittle too tired from study.. snap snap snap!
9)plants and zombie is fun !!!
10) last but not least, my two very hard working khakis- sebby and JP
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Randomthe messy table- so hard working right?
matching shoes..(whos who??)
some saturdays back, when i crave for basketball ramen.. and tadah!! the tamago is yummy! and soup is fantastic.. and im hungry now..
dearest gav me flowers that doesnt wit 2days later.. cos he gave me a....POT of wild orchirds..
and some times back, while studying in nus as usual, we found a wet pigeon lost from its nest, dearest picked up and use the hand dryer to blow-dry the fella and then we find a perfect spot to hand made a nest for him. luxury lo! we use some twigs and leaves the cleaner put aside and build him this.. gosh.. i wonder where the pigeon fall off from.. and she-he looks tired..
not bad right? and dearest did the civil works while i... i only help to take pictures of his work. hehe..
happy mummy's day
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on another note, sometime back in school, i met someone that plays a partial role in my life. i guess i wont be able to smile as freely to him as before. because i have learn to know things from a different angle. and its wrong to feel uneasy about it and yet you still got to put a smile on your face. it seem even more wrong to be someone nice because it is call polite. nah, i don need to be nice. its a sin to be nice to pple whom look at you in another form... but, on te hapir note, i met some old friends who have just finish their exams. and its good to hear them ask u out on a friday night..they still bother to keep you around them. but its so wrong to be out with them when your first paper is just 6 days later... so i have to do the ugly rejection which im very very relunctant..
how demoralising..
well thats about the long post. i think it gonna last for the whole May. till im ready to do some ranting..
