sunday
spend the wholeday at home with my family.. and the car too.. teehee.. went to upper pierce reservoir for some fresh air, and fish catching.. love it. its like the old days when daddy will bring us to chinese garden and then we will squat by the water, throw bread then start webbing up all the little guppies.. sadly, those guppies eat our fresh water fish. and today, i learn how to catch small lobster. which is a strategic plus patient task.fun, wanna go there to catch somemore during the weekdays.

monday

start working already. its fast alright but when u see your wallet getting thinner, u simply have no choice la. my work involves shredding of old documents. no more draughting..but once in awhile, i'll touch autocad when the gal doesnt know how to operate some of the function.. n nite time, i'll have to wait till mid night to fetch daddy home from his work... and thats why im not feeling well already. not enough sleep plus many ulcers in my mouth. so irritating, cant swallow food.

tuesday

same routin as monday lo.. now, i cant eat solid food without taking more then an hour to gulp them down.

wednesday

have been digging out some nice stamps from old envelops from those thrash for my mum. sometime u see surprising documents like original malaysian birthcert and even indian passport. haha and its been in there for so many donkey years. meet him for our 1499days together. went to vivo -dian xiao er for dinner. no celebration, no present, just us together. both of us were very tired from work. oh yah, he tender his resignation. i wonder if he is gonna switch to full time study..

thursday

atlast, meeting up with them.. let the peekture speaks..

spell wrongly.. reminiscence..

wes new phone.. outside a mosque

whilw we were waiting for the resturant to open, wes the vain-pot suggested taking the hot-air balloon to take peekture, and on our way there, we had fun cam-horing awhile,

halah dinner we had- zhar's recommendation

zhar wanted to bring us here for dinner

wes thinks he can snap nicer photo, tats why he is alwaes not inside the peekture lo.

walk back to bugis and we came upon this papa-dunoe wad massage. n wes lah, so disturbing, push the sign board infront of me.

our last stop before all of us head back home.

little prawny dieing soon

ok tats it.. after tcc, zhar catch last train home, wes go on flirting in pub(no lah) and i wait for daddy to pick me up.

yea.. my holidays.. after many nights in merah's mac. drinking lemon tea, and ordering student nugget meal, the aunty seems to know dear. and during the last nite pia-ing PBF, aunty ask him if he will be here tmr and he told him this is the last late nite staying here. ok im not gonna touch mac for as long as i could. the smell of it, jus makes me feel sick..

should have rest more before starting my job bcos im gonna resume work again this coming monday. aiz.. so wasted.. and im not doing draughting but more of the admin works..(very unenthu actually) if its not becos of my very tite wallet, and my dad's insistant of sai-ing cash on me,(i rejected his charity instantly) i would have very much enjoy the holiday. no money how to holiday right?

wanted to do so many things while revising for the exams.. so many, i keep thinking of it and listing it in my organiser. but when the holidays are finally here, i felt so insensitive to it. and i feel very lazy rather then enthu about the next day. haa-z.

sadly today's sentosa trip was cancelled. i guess bdae boy mus be disappointed bout it. hopefully we can do it soon again..

my weekends are packed for tthe next two weeks.. everyone seems to be only free on weekends. and i have to squeeze my schedules to fit everyones need. wahaha.. but anw, i have to start work already means no time on weekdays le... lesby inform me in advance so i can take leave k? enjoy ur trip...

went walking around in bugis with him. finally i can carry small bag le. bought jus follow law to watch in his house. thats about it..

lee xinyi!!! lim weiyin!!!weirong!! where r u all lo...

WAHAHAHHAA.. my exams are finally over!!!! i had my last paper today banking and finance, stay thruout the 3 hrs. some actually left like half an hour later.. hmm shant talk about it..its over!! shall not step inside hall 7 from now. lets jus play hard before judgement day which is i dunoe when. then i shall decide my next step. im not gonna think n brood over the past.. afterall, nuthing can be undone.. blame myself for all the last minutes and being so un-interested most of the time.

ok.. so what shall i do.. its so weird being free so suddenly. yet im so excited bout what im gonna be doing.. yes, has started out jotting the things to be done in short term and long term.. but the first thing i need to do,is to make an apptm with my dentist to abstract my wisdom tooth.ewk. and then its gonna b sentosa, and blading and bowling and gym,yoga swimming.. wahahhahaha!! im a happy woman for now! but then..im gonna see him lesser...he is going back to work after being like closely 24hrs with me.. during this few weeks, he has been picking calls while we were studying together.. busy man..nvm..

suppose to have many things to write, but now, i cant think of anything other then enjoying the holiday first..OK.. tata..


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BELOVED AZHAR!!!!!!

chui.. all chui.. i just had my POA paper few hours ago.. and the first 15mins reading time.. i jus sat dwn there accumulating marks i might scored.. damn.. in the end.. chui!! cant even dig 34 marks out..session A-gone. session B, wad the hell pom one FIFO and AVCO inside. then my closing stock blank. sesion c.. all the entries are so troublesome. i memorise so hard on the formulae, and ended up, didn come out.. my major subject.. and now i really have to consider giving up this course.. sigh...

im glad that most people feel the same way as im.. come out- first sentence: 'gone liao.' hoping all will chui together. oh and guess wad? somebody actually complain into newpaper. sim is on 2 full pages about the soci paper that the students are not even taught for session C.now everyone seems very dulan. even my fren who is suppose to graduate this year seems to feel tat she will have to repeat the damn paper again. somemore she flunk one time b4.. aiz...

read afew entries from some forum. they were also talking bout the uol paper and today's poa paper. this year is the 2nd poa paper. thus for students like us, we only have one past year paper to revise n look upon. scarly today paper.. is more difficult then last years one.(^&%^$#. some say can do, most say hard.. hope is most, then scripts will be moderated.. this uol exams damn hard to get the degree. standard very high.. and like they just want to earn our money..


this is the exam hall held in expo hall 7. any daddy are cab driver can try pick rich students up there around 12pm for the first paper and around 4 to 5pm for the second paper in the noon.

where to find money to retake so many modules
ok tears welling up...

i had nightmares.. i was doing integration. working n working on it.. keep scibbling. despite forcing myself to wake up, i still fall asleep seeing myself doing maths..
even now, napping for awhile, i see myself thinking variance cost and total cost.. scary.. really scary.. i just need some peaceful sleep.. how come i seem to be getting more depressed.

exams havent been smooth.. no doubt, im smiling hard outside but crying alone at night. i hate exams, it makes me stressed out. and if u wanna persue a degree and u think ur hard working enough, then go uol, if not, dun even get close to it. waste money, 24k for 3 years btw. (retaking exams fees not included.)

im no exam material. thus, UOL really makes me go depressed for months. today exam was netherless unsuccessful, especially when i heard the papers is a 'can be done' paper.. n from the moment i received the paper in my very bad fengshui sit, i knew i cant get thru the paper with 34. i hate maths, i hate the nincompoop who invented this shitty subject.shitty shits, maths = mads. people who loves maths are mad, (yes im jeolous)
whats up with integrating and differenciating when u wont be using it in my life? waste space in ur brain cells.

stats was bad, econs was worst(although all the paper are managable)if i cant make thru this whole exam, i think i'll drop off the idea of studying in uol. i will go back working and facing crappy people once more. i will continue draughting once again.
i realise i have been always been given a second chance which is fairly good.in the sense that i never held tight wad i have for the first time, or choices and i ended up losing it. and then,i will come to a sense that i have to persue harder once more. most of the time, i get a reasonable result. but it took me more time then others to achieve it.thus i feel lousy. yes im a determined person, i alwaes regret once i lose it, and then come back to my senses and really do well again, but i realise this is no good. i jus take things for granted.

lets quote some example.. i was a normal ache student, then i miss a chance in sec one to go to express, so its my 2nd and final chances that i can go up to express in sec 2. i did it! then i had my relax mode till the Os(i hate exams) ok, then i flunk my eng and cant get to anywhere, i dun wanna go ite. so i ended up wasting a year retaking my Os before heading up to poly. haha isnt it no different? waste time, waste money. but i see myself being happier even i waste that year.

then comes to poly. poly is totally different, u had ur frens there every single day. i for once, see myself enjoy school life with the frens who r alwaes there for u selflessly. sharing the same interest. wes and azhar are people who help unconditionally in year one. then diana and xinyi were there for me when it comes to chionging projects together in yer 2 n 3. yes there are the other bunch who were there. we work hard happily together.. aiming to be away from the sleepless nite.

but uni, uni is different. u have the frens there, but we never do much studying together, its really all bout ourself. u need help, u ask. nobody will ask u, how, can do? give u some ideas, r u sure this and that and this? and i guess becos studying is a total different methodwith accordance to designing, u dunoe what to ask, or rather, u dunoe how to tell. or maybe, i haven touch reading so much and doing so much maths. biz indeed kills more brain cells then designing.

i regret not studying harder, not putting in efforts from the start. as in do more maths tutorial.(i finsih all my tutorials loh) i noe i cant do last minute study and still, i disobey my weakness. please let me go thru all the exams. i promise i will start studying even b4 school term start. let me get my modules, although, although i noe, i wont be doing micro economics with the rest, becos i flunk my maths. like dear says' i havent even start, fail already'. haha.

i still have 2 more papers. i dunoe if i will have the mood to enjoy after this whole exams, i dun feel like seeing people, i have a tendency to feel look down upon. i dun like to be asked hows my study and then i have to say ok lah to many people. so if u happen to see me one day, dun ask me how is my study, becos, i dunoe wad to ans..dun ask me how am i doing becos, im not working nor earning big bucks sitting at home. maybe if u see me.. just walk away, hide behind the columns. or jus smile and walk away. i will appreciate the ignorance.. hehe.

mugg hard uol people, i left 2 more papers..u? (wadever)

ok! tmr is the big big day. and here im blogging.. bad bad bad... the papers must be ready, flown in from uk... tables and chairs all set in expo. they must have employed many part-time invigalators for 8dollars per hr..

im nervous...

exams are jus like judgement day.. judging the fact that u have been good or bad in ur understanding. how much leisure u have to forgo in return for the result. whether or not u attend lesson does not aid marks... at the end of the day.. its how much juices u manage to keep in ur brain for the very big day.

im nervous...

i cant sleep.. and i thought i should read sommore. but i guess its over now.. nuthing goes in anymore..

im very nervous..

nothing much to post.. this few days were mostly self revision in school with dear. took a long off from work, and will resume his work after stats paper which is next thursday..

i have decided to just aim for a pass.. a pass means getting 34. and the chances of getting 34 for me is only 40percent.. the rest of the 60... is 4 more days of intensive revisions.. and no black out on that exam day..

so tired.. so sleepy..

need to go pray soon.. shall start from guan yin ma..

-off-

went to catch spiderman 3 todae.. hehe, a day off from my hectic self revisions tat is. jason book the tix last week. hmm the show was not bad, still 2 hrs of movie always give me reason for hurting my bladder..heehee. anyway pics of the day lah.. force the guys to take pic..



taken after the show.

tats daniel aka niu niu and jason

and u know why spiderman is black in colour?... go watch lah then u noe.. k lah, worth it, but kinda sad.. like when theres an acceptance of the friendship.. he had to leave...


ok tats me, on the front driver seat.. hehe..

i didnt get to drive his car though, jus posing only..

and i made them make funny faces but i myself was laughing so hard, i ended looking funnier..

found this in the car.. old man still play with this.. tsk tsk..
after sending siya home in the east, and then mine in the west.. uncle jason so nice lo.. later he have to go north and then back his home... hehe..

and this afternoon, i was sucha careless woman lah, i drove down to his house (not telling him) and when i reach there, i realise i didnt bring my handphone along, and i went back home. sigh.. from west to redhill..waste petrol, waste time.. didnt get to see him, didnt get to study.. arghzz.... grr..


labour day eve
ytd, dear got promoted. good.. and bad.. he cant quit his job, and sure heavy work load.. more work = more time consume = wage increase, more ot = ot wage increase will lead to less time seeing me..= sad = more time myself. hehe


24 only, senior le.. gns... ok im very happy for him..(have to right, im must be supportive!!! pui... hehe.. im lah.


we had unhealthy dinner again...
after which, me and him went dwn nus for self studying. love their 24hrs service, giving me a place to study with my friends.. marie came down to meet us and we study until 4 plus am.. oh well, it wasnt productive for me, cos i ended up walkin down to cheers to get drinks and food. and when i start staring hard at the paper, nuthing gets into my head, n all i wanted was a bed then.. sigh.. jus take it as companying him and having him around me la.

in nus..


labour day is an off day for working people, i had my fair share of labour day break as well..bad bad.. very bad..

econs sux lah!

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